CC Blow - Always Hoped Lyrics

Always hoped I'd be somethin' I can't live life bein' broke
Tried to hoop, but I was in the trap, and in love with them poles
Then I figured I should rap, so I start pourin' out my soul
Tryna make it, I hope they feel what I say so I can blow

To be honest, I got too much pain been f*cked up by these hoes
And I got niggas fightin' the system, hope they get at least parole
If I keep stayin' on my grind, I know the top where I'ma go
Tryna make up for the times when I was hopeless, feelin' low

Was eleven when I held my first gun
Was a 380, two years later, I was Holdin
Them for fun, but shit got crazy
Same year, this shit got serious

Them niggas shot at us, that was my first experience
Mama told me to stay out the streets, but I wasn't tryin' to hear it
Tory got locked up, was sendin' letters to him while he was
They tried to lock my brother up, he moved to Cali on a bus

Everybody goin' through it, we just wanna see the sun
And I ain't never fear no nigga, I'll be waitin' when they come
With that .45 on my lap, bitch, I'ma blow you with that strap
And I don't play, you hit the hay, bitch, in that dirt, you take a nap

And every hoe said they'll stay between my heart, they left a gap
And I was in it every day, I'm just a product of the trap

Always hoped I'd be somethin' I can't live life bein' broke
Tried to hoop, but I was in the trap and in love with them poles

Then I figured I should rap, I start pourin' out my soul
Tryna make it, I hope they feel what I say so I can blow
To be honest, I got too much payment, f*ck the body hoes
And I got niggas fightin' the system, hope they get at least parole

If I keep stayin ' on my grind, I know the top where I'ma go
Tryna make up for the times when I was hopeless, feelin' low
Don't really f*ck with niggas, I be posted by myself
Ain't worried about them comin', I'ma thug till I get left

I'ma thug until my death
Them niggas tryna claim my soul, they wanna see my family cryin
Gone learn that f*ckin' with me, you just jeopardizin' your mind
All them days at Jason's house and we was thuggin' in the cliff

Now I feel everything, chains between my brothers, it's a rift
Used to play with beyblades, now we Totin ' metal
Lettin it rip, 30, some shots up in the clip
Put on my mask, get on your ass, pop out blast a bitch, then dip

Won't get no pass, get left in grass, bitch, that dirt be by your lip
And I get mad, I'm known to flash, so that lean, I gotta sip
They did me bad up in the past, I feel that love shit just a myth
I feel like I got a gift, mm

I should've known that they would hurt me, it's my fault I can't even trip
I'ma up from off the hip, mm
Put a n***a on his pockets when I cock it, send him up like rocket ship