I don't like what I've been seeing lately; used to wade out 'cause the waves wouldn't phase me Now I don't even wanna take a first step, scared it'll get too deep, too quick, and brick by brick I've been building up walls, thick and tall, keeping everyone out so the hurt don't get in
Thought I was safe, but I wanna escape
Strong-headed but I feel weak-threaded like Imma come apart at the seams any minute
Like I'm trapped in a dream and it's just me stuck in the lonely. Can You pull me back into reality?
The only thing that I can hear in this cell that I built are my thoughts that have turned on me Fast as my dreams burned on me - think I lost 'em with my will
Why can't I be still?
Wish I could just not feel for awhile
When nothing seems real and I just can't see you there Will you stay with me still?
Never thought I had any trouble being open
Didn't think I'd come this close to losing hope in everything I think I believe in
Shouldn't it be enough? I don't wanna tell anyone
Shouldn't need help with this; I can handle it myself but I'm coming up dry when I go to take a drink from the well
Where is my peace? I wonder how far I fell
I thought my faith was stronger. When did I lose my way?
I know You didn't change but I swear that my anchor's shifting
I don't want anybody to know I'm drifting
So I reach for a lifeline nobody's thrown yet, 'cause I'm too scared to scream out
What are they gonna think now?
Why can't I be still?
Wish I could just not feel for awhile
When nothing seems real and I just can't see you there Will you stay with me still?
Yeah I still don't get it; You tell me I don't ever gotta sweat it, but I'm out here no breath
Tryna catch it; can't catch it; You say to let go - how do I quit holding on with such a tight grip? Can't you see my mind keeps rip-rip-rippling, doubt on doubt on doubt; can't even find what this is all about
No, I need you to resuscitate and regulate me; I wanna forget it all
Help me be still
Don't even know what I feel right now
'Cause nothing seems real even though You say You're there
Are You here with me still?