$carecrow - Just So I Could Be Defeated Lyrics

While the phoenix said he was defeated
I just slit my wrist
All these voices keep repeating yet
I still don't get the gist
I'm depleted sick of this shit someday
Just hope I don't get greedy
Death is easy
If y'all don't get the meaning just delete me
Won't you plead
Is what the reaper said
I'm here to take your life
I looked him in the eye
Told 'em that I sold my soul the other night
To be frank for nothing
Just a bag of weed
A bag of chips
I'll die by f*cking grieving
All the way from hell
Lay inside my cell
Just so I could be defeated
Just so I could
Just so I could be defeated
All the way from hell
Lay inside my cell
Just so I could be defeated
Just so I could
Just so I could be defeated
I'm in trouble jumping into the frozen lake I'll be forgotten
I ain't the chosen one I chose the one
To take my life and dig me up a grave
As I wallow in my sorrows not today
Today is not the day I'll die just send me the f*ck away
Actually partially I may be the one to blame
But f*ck it
Cold sweat on your flesh
I see you're shaking
Knees weak vomit and shit
You keep me locked up and guessing
This life ain't really a blessing
I'll never find my peace
Got a few cuts on my wrist and they still aching
I'm trynna find a way that I could heal but I'm just wasting away
All my life in abyss the sky has blackened
I can't walk the plank like this the f*ck just happened
Well let
Well let me f*cking rest
I'm sick n tired of being depressed
I'll bury all of my enemies six feet underneath
Then open up my chest
So you can see it for yourself
When the $carecrow lit the match
That burned your world to f*cking death
That burned your world to f*cking death, aye