CAOZTICPRAYER - To Live a Life Your Own Lyrics

I mean, I can't even believe I'm saying it like this, but
I mean, has anyone else just completely broken down before
I mean, just completely broken down and breaking down in your sister's bathroom upstairs in the middle of the night
There's just so many things that we don't talk about

I feel like there's too much I don't talk about
And it just always comes out through the music, though
There's just a lot of things that I keep to myself
Just me being private, or me being an introvert, a little bit of both

I just hope that this mentality that I have of just being able to do this and stay inspired and all that type of stuff, I'm just
I'm just glad it's never left me
Ideas can leave you. People can leave you
But if there's one thing you need to make sure that doesn't leave you, it's your character

And I taught myself that, and I've seen that in this job, this industry, whatever you want to call it
This world that I live in, this job that I have, I experience things a lot differently from most people
Especially in terms of seeing what people do for money
Hell, I mean, I didn't think I would've dropped out of school, shit

I mean, it's still crazy for me to think that I would've dropped out of school
I didn't think I would've dropped out of school, shit
I mean, it's still crazy for me to think about, too
I mean, who would've thought, right? Well, some people thought

Some people knew
But, I mean, I don't know if that's just their general projection of themselves, or if that's just the type of life people see in me
I mean, I still want to finish, I never intend to not finish
It's just, damn

I'm doing more now that I'm out of it than when I was in it
You know
Hell
I remember being a full-time model and a full-time student, though, I'll tell you that wasn't easy

I felt like, in terms of school, my GPA just drastically dropped each year until the point I just
I just needed some time to myself
And maybe that's why I finally get to work on music, but
I think everybody's question now is

When are you going to settle down? When are you going to chill?
When are you going to look for something in someone else
It's crazy to ask somebody like me that, because I'm still looking in more in myself
I'm still looking at more in myself. I'm still looking in more in others

But some people don't have more within them to look at
So, the ones that you know have more, keep onto them because the people that have more, there's less of
And that's character development for you right there