Cachalot - ROPE/KNOT/GONE Lyrics

When I look behind me
It wasn't worth all the pain
I don't want to get better anymore
I just want you to suffer the same
So I surrender to the future
I surrender to my fate
Insignificant, nothing matters
No one cares

My heart keeps on beating but my eyes are
Blank
And the voices keep repeating
You should be dead by now
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead

I don't want to be here
I'm not really here anyway
I don't want to listen
To what they will say
Does hell really exist ?
Can you tell me what heaven is like ?
Do you think that I can make it ?
When will I know ?

If I die tonight
Do I get a second chance
Do I get a fresh restart
A new timeline to go through
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead

Rope, knot, gone
Rope, knot, gone
Won't you f*cking stop ticking
Rope, knot, gone

The child in me died
A long time ago
There's nothing I could do
Now I'm dragging its corpse around
All those suicidal memories
I can't set aside, I can't set aside

I have prayed for
The days to stop coming
Please don't make me
Promise anything
All those suicidal memories
I can't set aside, I can't set aside

What if I die tonight
What am I
What have I got
What have I done
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead, you should be dead
You should be dead

Rope, knot, gone
Rope, knot, gone
Won't you f*cking stop ticking
Rope, knot, gone