Bubba - #paintalk Lyrics

Forget everybody I don't wanna talk you won't understand goes on in my head
Taking these anti depressants I feel like a zombie I don't wanna get outta bed
So many times I committed the sin of wrath I was too busy just looking for reck
I wanna repent for my sins but i know be buggin' I prolly just do it again
Im down to my lowest
And nobody care for me either
Distracted myself lust n drugs but that ain't good for me neither
I need a healthier way I could coat with pain don't want talk to the reaper
Feeling too stuck in this loop of life I tried do good but I move like a tweaker
I'm always messing up again
Got no to call I cannot trust friend
Remember the night I almost died me and boy back n forth with the knife we was tussling
I gotta focus up again
Life like deck of cards I'm shuffling
Don't wanna live in a gamble of jail or death
Got trauma and I'm still recovering
On bro that type of feeling really spooky
Cause you feel like this straight outta movie
You thinking god this how you do me
But you the reason you in this sitchy truly
And that feeling never go away
I might not think about it everyday
I understand that i make bad choices I'm sorry it gotta be this way
So much time has passed and so many lives got lost
So many blocks I spun and so many bullets I tossed
Remember time when I ask bro for the torch kuz i was gon burn em all
Throw my pain at others I wasn't gonna be the only one to fall
Shield my pain with scenes And I tend to cover up my insecurities
Please just leave me be you doing more bad then good girl you hurting me
I been I wanting to keep it p but the thoughts in my head worda bro it be irking me
The day I get hit accept my fate I'm finna drown in this burgundy