I feel like I'm poisoned there's nothing but pain
I can't feel myself cause nobody's the same
I feel depressed and I'm ashamed
I don't wanna better myself anymore
I wanna hide away with this pain that I store
I don't want to be rude but I also
Don't want to live in peace with my solitude
I don't think I'll ever be loved again
I'm alone in a world where I can't fit in
I just sit and
Have a conversation with myself
On why am I living
Why am I constantly sinning
Why can't I express my feelings
Why do I have to be judged
For my appearance
Or how I'm feeling
Why do I have to keep going
When I can't even think of a moment
Of Where I felt chosen
Or wanted by people my heart is so cold
And my feelings feel frozen
Nothing will change me or break me ever again
When I'm down at my lowest
I promise you Blevey these motions are heavy
And you wanna leave but nothing will get to me
I say that respectfully
I don't have any friends cause all of you fake
I don't have my baby no more cause ima mistake
I know of only one person that would bring flowers to my grave
I know I'm not the same and I changed
My soul is nothing but flames
I don't wanna end my life
But I don't really care if I die
I'm still stuck with this pain in my mind
Stress and anxiety
Kill what's inside of me
Kill who I try to be
Kill all of these emotions that hide in me
Till I can finally breathe
I'm sinking slowly
My eyes start to bleed
I'm diving in waters to deep
Someone could pull me out
And stay for a week
Can't stand it any longer
Then they push me back to the deep
But still no one can f*cking save me
