I'm the definition of an outcast
I'm the one who always ends up last
No one even wants to be with my sad ass
I can't name a friend who didn't turn their back
But listen
I'm one of those muthaf*ckas who ends up missing
I'm so isolated from these people like it's my mission
Padded room wouldn't hold me but I keep a submission
Pissing people off and pushing people away
Is what I'm good at
Ex told me she don't want me back
She not going back down that path
So I distance myself from people
Cause I'm good at that
One day all ima see is white floors
White walls everything hella bright
Wake up every night curled up
In a ball wishing I did something right
Like on stage holding a mic
Taking bout shit that I write
I just want everything and everyone
Around me to be alright
I just want them to be alright
I'm so sick and tried of
Staring at my ceiling
With nothing but my feelings
I know all I need is some healing
But I have no one to help me
Heal them
F*ck
The people who left I don't blame them
Think I'm stuck in isolation
Didn't think I would ever need this information
On why I'm like this I'm even shaking
Just take these f*cking feelings and break em
Damn
Cause even I'm to f*cked up for me
I sit in my room
And I scream
For people to help
Not for people to leave
I pray for my pain
To go away
In reality I just hope
I could have a better day
