Bertha Tillman - I wish Lyrics

I scream into the void
Embrace the night
To keep from falling
I stare into the light
To blind myself
From what went wrong and
I hear you calling

Your essence still remains

I can't deny the way the pain
Escape my sight
And i was wrong and had no right
I never meant to watch you die

I wish i knew what you've been through
I wish i came around for you
I wish i could make things right
So you could still be here tonight

I carry this by choice
I could have tethered you to something
This guilt divides my soul
And in between i'm left with nothing
I hear you calling

Your essence still remains

I cannot take this
I am a shell of myself through my empathy
I let go to survive my own sympathy
Let go of me i'm just rotting away