Verbing With Sobriety Video (MV)

It's been a long night alone here
Drowning myself in cigarettes and cheap beer
I lost count of how many nails I've put in my coffin
But I hope i've knocked off a few years

Cuz I'm losing all my grip on my reality
A grip that started off tenuous at best
And if my self-medication won't heal me
At least the spiders under my skin will take a rest

But I shouldn't talk like that
Someone might hear and tell me Zack
You need to get your shit together
You pathetic narcissistic brat

But I just
Restate reiterate
The words keep pouring off my tongue
Restate regurgitate
My demon's feeding me some
Restate reiterate
Feel like I been here too long
Restate regurgitate
Try to salvage the wreck I've become

And I can't hear anything
In this roar of silence
A torrent of quiet
Everywhere but in my head

I'd like to say that I find it far more noble
To take up arms rather than bear their slings and arrows
But if I lay my heart out bare I know I'd bear them
I've come to hold my complacency so dear

I've become a f*cking parody of myself
The serious artist who drowns his pain in seventh chords and dulcet tones
What's bad for me is good for the music, art is pain and all that jazz
I'm just another kid who can't be grateful for what he has

You keep on saying the same damn thing
I keep on repeating the same damn thing
You keep on saying the same damn thing
I keep on singing the same damn thing
You keep on saying the same damn thing
I keep on screaming the same damn thing

But I shouldn't talk like that