Vesper Bell - Welcome To The Shitshow Lyrics

Let me tell you a story, it might hurt your head
We'll go pretty f*cking fast and there's some hectic twists ahead
Don't worry, I'll drag you through it, give you a taste of my inner world
You won't find a rollercoaster as wild as this, even at Dreamworld
Good luck keeping up with me, but I can't even catch myself
So buckle the f*ck up
My life's a mess, I can't stay still
There's no way out, no magic pill
I tried to break up with Denial, but he has a killer smile and gets me every time
I think I'm on the upward climb then I f*cking fall in the wishful thinking well
I'm a goddamned Gemini, can you tell?
Last night I was suicidal, then woke up in full denial
So planted flowers for an hour, but tripped and fell into disbelief
I had caffeine and codeine, but the pain relief was f*cking brief
So I went back to bed, but hit my head in shock again and cried
Cause I couldn't pretend the truth isn't real
I'm skipping dinner, cause I can't deal with how shit I feel
And I'm fed up, cause I can't keep the f*ck up with my own wallowing
How you going, you still following?
I pretend I don't know what I know, but I can't pass Go
Cause there's too much proof, I can't get out of jail or bypass the truth
It hits so damn hard every time I see a flashback card
I f*cking hate that I rolled this hand
I don't understand how the truth won't land
I try, but don't believe it
So I cry and get Water Works
It's bullshit, life hurts, I'm dead inside
My life's a mess, I can't stay still
There's no way out, no magic pill
I try to break up with Denial, but he has a killer smile and gets me every time
I think I'm on the upward climb, then I f*cking fall in the wishful thinking well
I'm a goddamn Gemini, can you tell?
Am I disgusting or disgusted?
I'm sad and also mad, no emotion cuts the mustard
I hate myself, then everyone else
I put my middle finger up to the world, then act like a little girl
Cause I'm upset and want a hug, then tempted to smash my coffee mug
I'm so angry it's painful, so confused it's shameful
I can't stand being in my own skin, cause I feel like I'm the one that sinned, but I didn't
I know, I have a post-it note saying so
There's a thin line between love and hate, but I can't discriminate
Cause the line's hidden under spilled red wine
My life's a mess, I can't stay still
There's no way out, no magic pill
I try to break up with Denial, but he has a killer smile and gets me every time
I think I'm on the upward climb, then I f*cking fall in the wishful thinking well
I'm a goddamn Gemini, can you tell?
Did you keep up? Cause I didn't
I got lost in a flashback and can't get back
That's all I have time for today
I hope you enjoyed your visit
The show in my mind changes daily, so if you're not scared shitless get in line to reserve a ticket, cause I'm almost at my limit