fredenet - staring at the sun Lyrics

(I keep on staring at the sun yeah)
(Do it for fun)
(I keep on staring at the)

I keep on staring at the sun
Sometimes think I do it for fun
Maybe why my life's undone
I don't really know what I'm doing
Play the game to keep on losing
Meanwhile I just want to be someone
That ain't here, stuck staring at the sun
And held in place by fears that I could never outrun
I hate the way that I've been living
In a life I don't believe in
Hiding from what I've become

I've spent too much time
Looking for an escape
And I'm so sleep deprived
Thinking 'bout what I hate
I don't know how to help it I've been falling apart
And every step I take just drags me right back to the start
I can't see through the fog I'm in
I think I'm drowning from within
I don't know if there's an ending to the pain in my mind
And I can't tell if I'm in hell or if there's solace to find
It's like a nightmare that won't ever end

I know that I can probably fix this
But I can't find what's missing
So

I keep on staring at the sun
Sometimes think I do it for fun
Maybe why my life's undone
I don't really know what I'm doing
Play the game to keep on losing
Meanwhile I just want to be someone
That ain't here, stuck staring at the sun
And held in place by fears that I could never outrun
I hate the way that I've been living
In a life I don't believe in
Hiding from what I've become

Silence don't bring me peace
Can't even hear my own heartbeat
Everything is drowned out by the sirens
It's the only way to hide from the person I don't want to be uh
So I tell myself things I don't mean
I waste away before a screen
This ain't how life's supposed to be
I know I know

(oh)
(I'm not thinking straight 'cause I don't sleep no more)
(My broken mental state needs fixing before)
I'm not thinking straight 'cause I don't sleep no more
My broken mental state needs fixing before

I keep on staring at the sun
Sometimes think I do it for fun
Maybe why my life's undone
I don't really know what I'm doing
Play the game to keep on losing
Meanwhile I just want to be someone
That ain't here, stuck staring at the sun
And held in place by fears that I could never outrun
I hate the way that I've been living
In a life I don't believe in
Hiding from what I've become

(I'm not thinking straight 'cause I don't sleep no more)
(My broken mental state needs fixing before)