Craw - SHOWDOWN Lyrics

Tell me how I'm supposed to feel when that wasn't what I envisioned
Oh that shit wasn't ideal to see most of my people missin'
Like I thought it wasn't real but it's f*ck 'em I love division
Someone come and take the wheel 'fore I take me out of commission
Like I wasn't f*ckin' happy with the way that things had went
I was thinkin' "how'd this happen" oh I wasn't too content
It went worse than I imaged but I had to represent
People in my face they're actin' say they'll be at the event
I still show up and I show out for my people in attendance
I just gotta get this shit out bitch I'm mad I'm wanting vengeance
I'm not one to take a handout bitch I'm staying independent
I'm still quite the broken man but you won't see me play defendant
I ain't say shit since the show I gutted myself on the stage
I had to keep it on the low but that shit left me full of rage
I bet you'd love to f*ckin' know what the next move is count your days
I been sayin' it's a go like I'm next up to go ablaze
I've been keeping to myself I don't let no one else around
Oh I live in my own hell like I live 6 feet underground
I live life like show and tell the way I'm lost and never found
I feel like I tripped and fell but I'm the type to go rebound
There were times where I felt split I was drowning looking for surface
Like I hate to go admit that I'm down and I'm feeling worthless
Oh I think that I'll commit oh my life feels like it's a circus
I'm not one to say I'm shit but you know I move with a purpose
I grabbed my shit I grabbed the pen but I'm wondering is it worth
To mark the path that I defend but I'm covering what's uncertain
It took a bit to comprehend that I'm not the only one hurting
Take a look then count to ten you won't see me no I'm deserting
I got too much on my mind like I can't deal with all the stress
Oh I hate to feel behind like I know that my life's a mess
I wish I could get back time I give nothing except my best
I think it's time to draw the line I took demons out for success
I left them hanging with a rope at the same time I kicked the chair
I hate to think that i'm a joke i have layers that I wanna tear
Sometimes I feel like i might choke but my thoughts they tend to go scare
The thought of holding onto hope I'm distraught I tend to go stare
I just need to get my health all in check before it's too late
And I've said this all before but I'm scared that this is my fate
You wont see me on a tour I'm the type to go isolate
You should wait for what's in store like I know I'm meant to be great