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Hey, it's me again
Just wanted to let you know that I'm doing okay
Just wanted to hear your voice, but
You're not here with me
I just want it to be simple, but
I don't even know how to talk to people
And I wish I did
To connect and feel at home, but
I'm not even comfortable to call you on the phone
I know I make mistakes, but
I'm still learning, and trust me
I'm not fake
But I'm still hurting, and sometimes
I forget those that mean to me the most
And that's not fair to you
Don't wanna overdose
I'm sorry
Done things I regret
Not talking to you or being with you
When I had the chance
I'm lost
But I deserve this
Don't you think?
I've lost all hope and reason to be who I wanna be
When I was a kid
I thought love was for everyone, but
Now I realize
I'm not everyone
Wanted to change the world
And make people happy
But I can't even help you beside me
I wish that it was easier
Or maybe they're excuses 'cause
The truth is even scarier
I'm only lost because I lost you
And I can't fix what I've destroyed
And that's you
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
It's like I'm dreaming, but I'm just not waking up

And I don't blame you
For not wanting to talk to me 'cause
I hate my voice too
Yet, here I am still calling you

I keep thinking of that day
See, the day before called
I was askin' what I should say
And to be honest
I was planning all the ways to keep it in
But I can't really do that
When the bottle's pourin' thin
So, I've been lying
To myself and to the world
Everybody's watchin'
But it's you who hasn't heard
I've been planting all the flowers
That tell me that I deserve
But I don't call that care
When I know I'm not that sure
I'm sorry
For everything I said
On the phone, I was crying
And I wasn't makin' sense
I was dreamin' of the dances at the zoo
We had again
But I know it's hard hear me
So, I'll put it to an end
I wish that I was earlier
Or maybe I'm a liar 'cause
I've never seen you happier
I'm only lost because
I lost you
And I can't fix what's okay, and that's you
And I'll end it there 'cause
You know I care about you
And I always will
Keep glowing