Amistad - LETTER TO MYSELF Lyrics

I'm 17, And it's 2014
Now I'm begging to my ex
'Cause she wanting to leave
Thoughts of suicide creepin
Now it's all in my head
I wonder if the world is better
If I'm better off dead
Maybe I should transfer schools
It'd be better instead
Maybe I should leave my family
And go live with my dad
My friends would never understand
They ain't never been last
My lil brothers and my sister
Man, they never been sad
They say aim for all A's
But Im down on my ass
All this shit inside the world
But never mind to be haved
I'm really trying my best
But I'm always coming in last
Ex put me on three way
When I was down on my last
When I was pouring my heart
My mama even seen me crying
And it tore me apart
Taking all my time for granted
I keep coming up short
Ain't forgetting the fourth
I'm really tryna ease the pain
So I f*ck with the torch
'Cause I am not God
I never forgive my sins
I really wanna blow my brains
'Cause I'm better off dead
Got some drank inside my system
And I'm rolling again
With all the pressures of the world
How's my story gone end?
Lord Help Me

4 Years later
I can't tell you how it ends
But I know for a fact
That I can tell you how to begin
First off forgive yourself
For all that shit that you did
I know you hurt, But she hurt too
She can't go through it again
What's the thought about suicide?
You got too much to give
Don't run away from your problems
'Cause they gone catch you in the end
Now I'm reaping what you sow
And this shit is taking a toll
In 4 Years, It's been 5 schools
I just wanted you to know
Now I'm in a dark path
With no light, It's all anger
Sitting back reminiscing
Now you looking like a stranger
Lost all of your best friends
But don't trip, it's all good
That's what Family's here for
And don't be ashamed of yo hood
Even though things ended bad
Time to look at all the Good
Despite this whole situation
You Dre are still good
Even Aldo got your back
After all of this time
My only problem now is
That I feel like I'm finna die
Lord Forgive Me